you know what i don't understand? regret. like.. why do people regret. sure, there are some things we'd rather have not happened in our lives.. but does that mean we have to regret them? for example, say your ex-boyfriend was a douchebag. if you say you regret that, you might not have learned how to deal with a douchebag boyfriend, how to break up with a douchebag boyfriend, how to avoid douchebags, etc etc. you got the gist. i don't know. i've always been one to stop myself from regretting because.. i mean, yeah. it sucks to have struggles in your life and all that jazz but like.. if it made you grow stronger, what is there to regret? i mean you got something out of it, right? i don't know. i've been told i think abnormally. anyways though, regretting is really useless.
       there's this one guy in my life that i really liked. like.. extremely, intensely. he was such a nice kid.. but that was only his exterior. he's a closet jerk =__=. he treated me like an insignificant being. he was terrible to me. he took advantage of the fact i liked him and made me do all of his essays and his homework and give him all the answers to tests and everything. yeah, it was my fault too, but thankfully, i learned from that. [see? it's a learning experience!] well anyways, because of the brokenness he caused me, i needed someone to turn to. anyone would do. and that's how i found one of the most precious people in my life. the brother i had always been waiting for. you see? if i hadn't dealt with that jerk face, i wouldve never met the person that i love more than i'm capable of loving a guy in a relationship.
       yeahhh to wrap things up.. regretting seems like a waste of time. i mean, God places struggles in our lives that we may grow in Him and look to Him and all that good stuff.. and we're basically regretting an opportunity of growth. soooo yupp. i'm done haha.

i always wondered if i died,
who would laugh & who would cry?

who would say, "i can't go on,"
and who would jump with glee?
would i make an impact or
leave a mark in history?

i used to think i knew the answers
but now, i have no clue.
time has changed too many things
for past truths to be true.

keeping optimisticcc~
it's hard ><